a drop in the ocean, a tear from your eye in a sea of emotion.

the delicate wings of your energy flap violently against the gusty winds of resistance and collapses on my cheek, exhausted, dying and happy

It’s funny how we kid ourselves. If the truth doesn’t suit us we bury our heads in the deepest sand we can find. Cling onto an olive branch that has been extended out of obligation. How long will your white knuckles clasp the brittle twisted safety of delusion before the trembling weight of the truth crackles and finally, sharply….snaps

Happiness has been swelling up in the grey clouds that loom over our scorched earth for a while now. Thunder rumbles in the distance with change, the sharp crack of lightening snaps me out of my consciousness and into a newer higher state. I do not need to promise, i do not need to pledge, i just will and i just am…changed. Happiness will rain down on anyone around me from this moment on. Life giving rain will pepper the earth breathing new life into dorment seeds. The earth will now heave with lush greenery my conciousness unlocking the growth that was always there. Those i hold close will look to the clouds and smile as the storm rolls in, joyous in the knowledge that I’m giving everything i can, and i always will.

Things just click sometimes.  An old saying that you have heard a million times may suddenly become so vivid, so defined in a moment of clarity.  “Make the most of every moment” is the quote that spoke to me most when a mother who had lost her son explained it.  Her tone spoke with conviction and my soul listened intently, a warm feeling pulsed in my chest with resolution.